I Am Alive and Well

This December I have been experiencing an onset of mental illness. I was unaware. I did some terrible things that I can’t take back. I was hospitalized and am now better than ever.

When my thinking finally became clear again, I realized that I had been given a second chance at life. No one was physically hurt, which is great, considering my court family just lost someone this year. I can use this experience to help others.

To anyone I hurt emotionally, lashed out at, or latched onto, I apologize. I did not know I was losing it. Now that I know such a thing is possible, it will never happen again; medical intervention was necessary.

The antitrust conspiracy post will be rewritten to be simple and constructive. Stenonymous will return to its original goal of uplifting the profession. I will take some months off.

A word of caution to those that were rejoicing over my suffering: What does not kill us makes us stronger, and I didn’t die.

A word of advice: If you notice behavioral changes or mood issues, go to the ER. It just might save your life.

For me personally, this is going to be a positive. We now know that even in the event of psychosis I’m nonviolent. Better still, I just created and managed the industry’s largest blog while mentally ill. Now that I am mentally prepared, my life is about to get a lot easier. Years ago, we got NCRA 2.0. Who knew that was possible with people too?

If you’d like a great song for this blog post, check out Poor Jack from Nightmare Before Christmas. It fits incredibly well.

28 thoughts on “I Am Alive and Well

      1. WE have work to do, and WE will do it. WE need our friend and cherished colleague. Take the time you need, sweet Chris.

  1. Love you, Christopher! I am very happy that you are back. I was worried about you. Thank you for letting all of us know you are okay and for keeping us apprised. Rest as long as you need! I look forward to and fully support your comeback. Happy New Year, my friend. XO

  2. Thank you for letting us know & for all you do to help us fight this fight! I was concerned for your well-being and I’m very grateful you’re okay!

  3. Christopher, it’s as if you read my mind. I have been thinking about you a lot recently. I’m so relieved to hear that you are doing well. You are one of a kind and we love and need you.

  4. I’m so glad to hear from you and that you’re okay. We will all continue on together as friends and colleagues supporting each other. I used to sing in a choir, and we learned very early not to all take a breath at the same time – to stagger it so that the overall effect is seamless music while still giving everyone a chance to breathe. This is your time to breathe. Take all the time you need and know that we are all here to support you and cheer you on.

  5. Thank you for posting, my friend. I am relieved to hear from you and know you are feeling better. Everyone I know has experienced or knows someone who has experienced (or is experiencing) mental / emotional illness. Acknowledging the truth of our behavior and how we feel and what we need is the first step in healing. It takes courage to admit the truth and to apologize. Through this post, your vulnerability, strength, courage, and commitment will help many.

  6. Feel better soon! Getting help is a huge step. You’re very much appreciated, Chris, but take care of you first.

    1. Appreciate you greatly. So sorry for your suffering. Very glad to hear you’re better and are going to get the break you need and have earned.

  7. But for the grace of God, there go I…. Good to see your smiling face and so glad you’re feeling better, my friend! ❤️

  8. Oh, wow, it put a big smile on my face when I saw your post!! So grateful that you’re doing better. I’ve been thinking about you a lot! You’ve been an inspiration to so many of us, and you’ve lit the court reporting world on fire. We’ve all got your back. Take care of yourself!! 2022 is going to be a great year!

  9. No stigma! I’m so glad you are taking care of yourself and were able to get help. You are a hero to many. Please continue to get well!

  10. No need for apologies. I’m so glad you are receiving the medical help you need and on the road to recovery. You’re an amazing person, and I appreciate you so much.

  11. Sending you my continued prayers and much love. You’re right, there is work to be done. #StayStenoStrong

  12. So very happy to know you’re feeling so much better! We never lost faith in you, Christopher! The power of prayer along with supportive friends and family are the ultimate gifts of life. And you know we have your back each and every step of your journey to better health! I

  13. So glad you’re doing well. Hope you feel the love of friends and family surrounding you. Glad you are taking the time you need. Thanks for letting us know how you’re doing. We all stand behind you, my friend ! Wishing you a happy, healthy, and blessed new year!!

  14. I’m very thankful that you’re on the mend.
    Please take the time that you need to heal.
    I know from experience it can be an arduous process.
    Cheers to 2022

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